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    Learning The Hard Way

    This isn't something I don't really care to admit to, but I hope it might help some other people with a similar "leak" in there poker game.

    Since the beginning of the year I have grinded up over $6000 on Bovada, (my favorite sight, I just do better there). I have cashed out $150. Why so little? I blew the rest in the casino; sometimes more than a $1000 at a time. (Mostly on blackjack)

    Every time I'd be sick with myself and say I'm not going to do that again. Then a day or two later I'd make another $20 deposit. I'd win it up to over $100 than take the over amount to the casino. But when I lost it, I wouldn't stop there. I'd take another ten, then twenty, another twenty, then the last fifty, until it was gone.

    Sometimes I'd deposit and go straight to the BJ table and bet $5 a hand hoping to turn my $20 into $50 for a better roll. I'd say to myself I'll risk $10 and if I don't win I'll go play poker. And sometimes, It worked. Other times, I'd lose 2 hands in a row, then play the other ten and lose it. I'd make another deposit, lose it, than make another LARGER deposit, spending more than if I had just deposited $50 and played with that. Hell, I've drained my checking account without ever playing a hand of poker or opening up a table.

    I did that today. Over the weekend I had made another $20 deposit and had grinded up to about $150. While playing a $3 rebuy that I was doing very well in I started playing BJ for a dollar a hand with the $7 I had over $150, won it up to about $17 then lost it down to $10 (I had said to myself I would go below $15 after I passes it) Then I rolled it over to video poker. Again won it up, then lost back down to more than I said I'd go below but still left with a profit. Then I went and played slots. I bounced around from game to game, winning little bits here and there. As soon as I hit a big line or triggered the "feature" I'd move on. I was up to about $40 bucks when I got to a game I couldn't win at. I lost it all. Then I lost more. Then more. And more. I drained my entire bovada account.

    I was so upset with myself. I let ME down again. But did I learn my lesson this time? ....No.

    I made a twenty dollar deposit and went straight to the BJ table. I lost it all in four hands. I made another $20 deposit, this time I hit a high of about $55 before I lost it all. I made larger deposit, than an even larger deposit, that left me with only a few singles in my checking account. Still playing five a hand, with only five left if I lost the hand I got two face cards while the dealer showed six. I split for two 18's. The dealer ran out 20.

    To top it off, while losing my last deposit, I busted out of my tourney right before the money (AK vs 55, flop was AK5, no help on the turn or the river. Eh, shit happens) So now I'm sitting there, checking account empty and without a roll, sick to my stomach. Why won't I learn? Why can't I practice self control?

    Before I went off to a miserable night at work, I sent an email to support asking if there was a way I could exclude myself from the casino games, including BJ in the poker client. I received an response a few hours later saying that had done just that and that if I wanted to use either again I would have to contact support after 72 hours have passed.

    Don't get me wrong, I hate that I have thus far been unable to practice my own self discipline. But, I'm glad I did it.

    Tonight, without any money in my checking account to deposit, I sat down at the 5c/10c limit table. It was the only table I could buy into with the 91c still sitting in my account. I won it up to about 2 1/2 bucks than sat down at two $1 sng's. I busted one to some random variance and I took down the other. I'm currently taking a little break to write these thoughts, but I have grinded up to about $7. I know it's small money, but I can't begin to tell you how good it feels.

    I am going to make the same requests on the other sites I play. I still like to gamble, but I'll save it for the brick and mortars. Cheers to making good decisions. ...Even if they did come the hard way.

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    casinos are bad luck for me too sorry about your lost. hope things turn around and best of luck to ya stick to poker cya at a ft
    <StephyMarieC> erik!!!!! yay you've always been one of my favorites hehe <scorcher863> i kinda want to smoke some meth, then play poker for like 3 days straight

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    yeah it only took me 1 time to play blackjack and lose 1k and never play it ever again unless i have like 5 bucks and do a dollar or 2 but poker is your best bet

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    i REALLY WISH THEY WOULD TAKE THAT CASINO OUTTA THERE. black jack is so addicting

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    You need to be very careful as it seems you have a very addictive personality. I think you did the best thing you could for yourself by having them shut that off to you. Good luck building your roll back up and make sure you cash out lol
    Failing to Prepare is Preparing to fail : John Wooden

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    I've only lost about $40 total of my BR to the casino games, for may be a total of 10 minutes play time. I've worked so hard grinding out every dollar of my BR that even that small amount makes me disgusted with myself.

    But my real problem with casino games isn't online, it's in real life. I have this compulsion to gamble way more than I should when I play anything in a casino besides poker. The problem usually happens when there isn't a seat in the poker room, or the games have closed up shop and I'm not ready to go home. It makes me want to throw up thinking about how I can blow through hundred of dollars like it's nothing in just a matter of hours. I wish I could ban myself from all gambling but poker in casinos. When I lived in Missouri, I even looked into blacklisting myself from the casinos there, even though I would have cut myself off from poker there. I never lost money I needed, but I've thrown away all the extra money I've had, and it's a horrible feeling.
    I'm gonna give that bitch a freeroll, bitches love freerolls.

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    Well, I did it to myself so don't feel bad for me. But I do appreciate the support. I don't feel bad about losing money in live casinos because I usually make up the difference in free drinks and comps, and I always have a good time. In other words the experience was worth the cost. I don't feel like that after losing my money gambling by myself at a desk in my home.

    So, I'm glad I did it (wish I had done it long ago) and I went ahead and did it on the other sites I play as well. I was even able to remove the in poker BJ and keep access to the sportsbook. It was all very easy and took less than a few minutes of my time for each site.

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    Alright AK vs AA Who Wins. It Depends On The Flop LOL.. I need the 5 points lol
    HE WHO CAN SEE THE INVISIBLE. CAN DO THE IMPOSSIBLE !!!! ..

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    geez frank, I missed you last night in client....now I see where you were. Quit That!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Invertedafro View Post
    geez frank, I missed you last night in client....now I see where you were. Quit That!
    I haven't been In client lately because I sold all my points. I'm sure you will see me soon.

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